The tube swap went very well, and it is very nice to have a clear, unclogged, cooperative tube once again. Jury is still out on the botox procedure. The goal is that by freezing my pyloris muscle open, my stomach would empty faster and that would alleviate my nausea. The doctor who performed the procedure said that my pyloris was already pretty open, so he wasn’t sure how well the intervention would work. My body is still working through the sleep deprivation, the anesthesia and the adrenaline of the past few days, so I really can’t tell anything yet.
The real test is going to come this week when I fly East for 10 a 10 day gathering of David’s extended family. Travel is incredibly hard on me. I find driving to be the worst, as my incredibly sensitive abdomen absorbs each bump and curve I feel a wave of discomfort and nausea. Comparatively, flying is nice and smooth. But, navigating the airport and TSA stress is simply exhausting.
Accordingly, if the botox can tamp down my nausea through a trip that will involve hours of driving on both ends, with a long flight in the middle, I will call it an absolute success. Only time will tell.
Travel is not what is occupying my mind these days. I am reserving my anxiety for what the company that supplies my formula and feeding supplies is not telling me. For almost a year now, they have been citing supply issues and periodically sending me feed bags for a different pump. They are theoretically fully compatible with my pump, but in my experience, they have been associated with some anomalous pump behavior.
This month the supply company sent me 500ml bags instead of my usual 1.000ml bag. These bags are for my pump, but require that I add formula in stages, rather than setting up a feed all at once. Not a huge deal on its own. Just a bother and another thing to remember to do throughout my day. A day that is already bound my medication times, flushing my tube 5 times a day and now an extension of my feed process. All of these little details and requirements, compounded with my varying levels of pain and nausea do really make it hard to live one’s life.
I called the supply company about sending me the wrong bags and they gave me the same supply chain issue line. I did a little research in my tubie group and it seems that the company that makes my pump is ceasing all support for the pump in September 2024.
The company that makes my pump does have a brand new pump that is replacing the model I have now. Some patients have received them. Just so far, no one who has the same supply company that I have. The supply company that is clearly divesting itself of all of their old stock for my current pump. It is their lack of communication that is really concerning me. It makes me wonder whether they are planning on getting out of the enteral feeding business altogether an \d just dumping their patients rather than making a capital investment in new pumps.
This company was generally well staffed and supportive when I first got my tube in November of 2022. Since then they have made massive cuts to their enteral feeding department. I no longer have a dietician than tracks me. My only communication with them is now a single monthly email asking if I am ready for my supplies to be sent. I don’t even get a confirmation after I reply. Unless you count the automated shipping information email which usually comes after my supplies arrive.
This is truly a terrifying time to be so dependent on our fragmented medical system. I see no profit motive in feeding folks like me. Given the capitalism on overdrive state of the world, I just can’t help but wonder how long it will be before I get fully dropped between the cracks.