I have taken the last of my antibiotics and I find myself feeling as good as I did back in July, before this all started. On Thanksgiving, I was able to stay engaged and social for 6 hours and I ate a very small amount (but more than I have been able to eat in a long time) of delicious food. I only had one episode where I got so queasy that I needed to re-medicate. Overall, a raging success.
This is particularly excellent news because we have people coming to visit us every month through February. We are clearly emerging from the cocoon we constructed, by necessity, over the course of my most recent health crisis.
Now that I have the ability to think again, I find myself trying to process the last 4 months. Severe pain forces one to shrink their focus down to what is immediately in front of them. I was stuck in the lowest level of Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs. I couldn’t think, I couldn’t plan and I certainly couldn’t process what was happening to me.
David came to all of my medical appointments because I was an unreliable reporter. I couldn’t even remember how I had felt the previous day. All I knew was the present. The past was irrelevant and the future was unimaginable.
David was an excellent reporter and an even better advocate. Sometimes David would push for things that didn’t even make sense to me. But I was usually smart enough not to push back. And in the harsh light of day with the benefit of hindsight, he was always right.
TPN (my IV nutrition) requires special care. My PICC line leads right to my heart, so infection is always a concern. A nurse has to come in once a week to draw blood for labs, change my dressing and change the extensions. The reason that she no longer comes twice a week is because she trained David to change my extensions. This is not something she teaches all of her patients. But she was particularly impressed with David’s careful attention to the finicky process.
This was not the blog post that I had expected I would write. But it is apparently what I really needed to say. It seems that the first thing I needed to do as I start to process the past 4 months, was to express my gratitude for David and all he has stepped up to do. He has been amazingly supportive since I first got sick, but he really stepped up during this most recent crisis.
Our 25th wedding anniversary was on November 7th. But I was in no shape to celebrate it then. I would like to take this opportunity to acknowledge that I chose very wisely. I cannot imagine a better life partner. And as much as I regret that I need to be cared for to the degree that my health demands, I would not want anyone else to be there for me than David.
Back in the Saddle Again
This is Eva Actual.
I have a daily assignment from my pain CBT class to write for 10 minutes every day. That kind of concentrated effort does cause me a little pain, but nothing the associated binaural relaxation technique (think EMDR) doesn’t offset. And given that I had already worked out a system to get a little writing done, I figured why not write a blog post, for a change.
My status is very much improved. We now think that I picked up the C.diff at the hospital in Springfield, MA, back in July when my tube kept flipping and I got to know their ER really well. The timing lines up with the onset of the pain. Despite being hospitalized twice after that, it didn’t occur to anyone to check for C.diff. Not even when I had a consistently high white blood cell count for months. The doctor at the hospital attributed it to the TPN and my PCP just followed his lead. To be fair, she knew nothing about TPN until it was foisted on her by my GI.
I am now on my second round of antibiotics, and finally on the one that is the preferred treatment for C.diff. Apparently it is designed to stay in my gut even after I finish my course, so my symptoms should continue to improve as they did after I completed my first round of antibiotics. During the 10 days it took for me to get the prior authorization approved by my insurance company, I spent 7 of those days unmedicated, which was incredibly frustrating. Fortunately, it all seems to be working out in the end.
The TPN is down to 12 hours a day. David hooks me up before we go to bed and then disconnects me in the morning. On days when I have no need or interest in getting up that early, David disconnects me from bed. Which is the normal person equivalent of having your partner bring you breakfast in bed. I have a pretty sweet deal.
My PICC line (through which I get my IV nutrition) is also designed to be used for blood draws for my weekly labs. However, it has never been particularly great on this front. Even when the nurse did get blood return, it tended to be sluggish and barely fill the tubes enough for my labs. David and I have learned a lot about the minimum fill requirements of the golden and lavender topped tubes used in blood draws.
Right now I am on day 2 of leaving in CathFlo* overnight to clear out whatever is hindering the blood return. CathFlow is the roto-rooter of catheter occlusions. See all the fun things one can learn from being a tubie?
After months of neglect, I have started flushing my J tube again. It too, is somewhat occluded. I can get in 25ml twice a day with some discomfort, but no pain. Any more than 25ml at a time just bounces back out. I am not going to invest the time and energy (and possibly pain) to clear out the tube. Instead, I am to increase my flushes to 3 times a day and continue that until my tube swap on December 19th. This should be enough to get my intestines warmed up to resume enteral feeding again.
The plan is for me to go back to 18 hour feeds (I had been at 20 hours in July, but that was to maximize caloric intake). Since we will be titrating the TPN down as we increase the enteral feeding, I can take the extra two hours off without losing any nutrition.
*David and I both call it Caff-Pow to each other.
Limbo is not just a party song
This is David writing for Eva.
So many things have happened since I last wrote. So little has changed.
The big change is that Eva was diagnosed with C.diff, , a nasty little bug that lives in the intestines. It can cause, among other fun symptoms, diarrhea and intestinal pain. It is possible that all the symptoms we’ve been attributing to the tube can be laid at C. diff’s metaphorical feet. Or not. The good news is that C. diff is treated with antibiotics. The bad news is that it is extremely difficult to treat. It takes specialized antibiotics that function in the intestines, and often requires extended courses (like six to eight weeks). Eva is coming to the end of the first week with no significant improvement, is waiting on insurance approval for a switch to an even more targeted antibiotic, and on it goes.
C. diff, is something familiar to anyone who has spent any time working in a health care setting. It requires certain precautions before going into a room: putting on a full gown and gloves. It is both extremely contagious and an extremely resilient bug. Assuming I am negative for it (which, given a lack of symptoms, we are assuming), we must be doing really good basic hygiene. Alternatively, my body just fought it off, or I’m not particularly symptomatic?
In any case, we now have a disease for Eva to fight off which is curable, which makes for a nice change of pace.
In terms of the tube swap, we have had so many steps forward and back that it is hard to keep track. We were scheduled for a tube swap on Monday of this week. This was an ambitious goal for insurance to render a decision, but with much chasing on the part of our complex care coordinators, we got an answer on Friday. Insurance approved the procedure, but not at Stanford. Procedure canceled.
By the end of Monday, we had gotten approval to do it at Stanford, but only after beginning to figure out how to do it at UCSF, and, of course, needing to restart the scheduling on the procedure.
C. diff throws a new wrinkle in. It turns out that the procedure can be done while Eva has C. diff, but it needs to be the last procedure of the day. But . . . there are questions about whether Eva should wait until the C. diff clears up so that the new tube isn’t exposed to C. diff. The medical consensus seems to be that waiting is the better course. Scheduling called today and offered two dates for a tube swap. Next Wednesday or December 18th. Eva had to take December 18th.
In case all of this wasn’t enough, there was an election this week, and the winner has been trying to end the ACA (Obamacare) since first taking office. Without Obamacare, we are uninsurable at reasonable cost. We would need to go into state high-risk pools. We are definitely beginning research on places that might accept us as immigrants and that have high quality medical systems.
Other than that, everything is just fabulous. Eva continues to be in lots of pain with sides of nausea. Except on days when the nausea is primary to the pain.
My Kafka-esque Existence
This is David writing for Eva again.
Much remains the same as the last time I posted. Eva is still in pain and nauseated. We have some new symptoms (diarrhea). We have the same feeding tube Eva has had since early August. We have blown past two appointments for getting it swapped out without getting the necessary approval from the insurance company.
Just a reminder: Eva has been in a great deal of pain since she had this tube put in on August 1, and has been unable to use it for feeding because of the pain. Instead she is now on TPN (IV nutrition). We believe the pain is being caused by this tube or how it was placed given that the pain and the placement happened at the same time. None of the imaging has shown any reason this should be true, but it also hasn’t ruled it out.
About 6 weeks ago the GI authorized a tube swap for Eva (though this was not well communicated). It was originally scheduled for Second Day Rosh Hashanah (October 4). But first, as with everything in today’s medical system, we needed clearance from the insurer.
Stanford is out of network, but there is a magic form that lets them perform the procedure as though they were in network. But despite a heroic push by our complex care coordinator, this form could not be completed by October 4th. The night of October 3, the procedure was pushed, rescheduled for October 24 (“hey! That’s tomorrow,” I hear you thinking). For the last three weeks our complex care coordinator has been chasing around with Stanford and Blue Shield, trying to establish where the form was and whether it had been approved. Stanford said it had been submitted. Blue Shield said they’d never seen it. Stanford couldn’t produce a copy for our complex care coordinator to show Blue Shield and push through the bureaucracy. This has been the subject of daily pushing by us and our complex care coordinator for at least 10 days.
Today, the secretary of the GI practice at Stanford sent a note through the patient portal saying, essentially, “form? What form? We never filled out a form.” Procedure was canceled again.
Eva remains in debilitating pain. The form seems not to exist yet. We have to start over from the beginning. And now Blue Shield says it is taking them a week to enter forms into their system for review, so plan extra time for that.
To say we are frustrated (and that Eva is so far beyond frustrated that I don’t have words to express it), would be rather like a theologian describing God as “good” (that’s a pretty funny line for those who have studied medieval theology–if not, well, have you considered going to seminary so you get the reference? It doesn’t take more than five or six years…). Yes, we are exploring other options (can this be done truly in-network? To what degree is this a commodity procedure and to what degree does specialization matter?). Yes, the complex care coordinator is part of the frustrated we. I believe Kafka was mentioned today.
And so, we are restarting this process again tomorrow. Girding ourselves once more to battle bureaucracies that specialize in making it difficult to speak to a human (again, so grateful that the complex care coordinator does much of that navigation for us). Eva remains in pain and nauseated. And we continue to float on in winds and tides of large institutions, subject to their whims and arbitrary decisions.
The Post Hospital Chronicles
This is again David, writing on Eva’s behalf.
We get Eva home from the hospital on Aug 21. She is deeply relieved to be home, but still in significant pain and with tons of nausea. She can’t use her feeding tube, and she is layering gabapentin and Tylenol and a bunch of other meds. She is spending most of the day in bed.
Within a day, I’ve taken over hooking and unhooking Eva from TPN (IV nutrition). It’s a process, and it’s a fussy process. The goal is to keep anything non-sterile from entering Eva’s PICC line. There is a lot of scrubbing things with alcohol wipes. There is a lot of precision taking poking needles into vials and removing vitamins. And it is more concentration and more standing than Eva can do.
Things aren’t getting better for Eva, and the doctors keep upping the gabapentin. Eva keeps taking increasing amounts of gabapentin because she is in pain and the doctors tell her to.
We go see a GI NP at Stanford about next steps. She prescribes the fluoroscopy and a visit to the pain clinic. We are able to schedule both appointments for a week out on Sept 11. We return home. Eva continues to feel well and truly awful. Pain such that she can’t concentrate on anything. Wooziness (like, she stands up and then has to sit down on the floor because she is afraid she will fall down). I begin to notice that while Eva feels better an hour or so after she takes Tylenol, the same doesn’t seem to be true of the gabapentin. I begin to wonder if the gabapentin is doing anything.
Eva makes it through an excruciating week before we head down to Stanford again for the next set of appointments. The pain clinic doctor is pretty great. She switches Eva from gabapentin to pregabalin (Lyrica). She has next steps in mind if this doesn’t adequately fix things. She refers Eva to a pain psychologist who will give her methods to help control the pain (that appointment will happen sometime in October). She refers Eva to a pain physical therapist, who will help Eva tolerate contact pain on her abdomen (maybe?).
We finish with her and it’s 11:00 AM. The fluoroscopy isn’t until 4:00 PM. Our home is 1.5 to 2 hours from Stanford Medical Centers. The good news is that there is a lovely courtyard with some padded chairs where we hang out until Eva’s TPN finishes, I disconnect her, and then we go off and find some lunch for me. We arrive at the fluoroscopy appointment outrageously early (2:45), which turns out okay because there is an insurance issue that takes 45 minutes for the check-in desk to resolve.
The fluoroscopy reveals nothing abnormal. There’s something unusual, but the radiologist can’t quite put her finger on it. It does cause Eva a whole bunch of pain because it involves flushing her tube with 120 ml of dye and she can’t even tolerate 30 ml of water.
We head home, Eva in excruciating pain and nausea.
The good news is that the pregabalin is working way better than the gabapentin. Eva is able to concentrate for brief periods. She is also venting a fair amount (which isn’t great for her hydration, but so far her labs seem okay).
Labs. A nurse shows up twice a week to change the dressing on Eva’s PICC line and change the extensions (little tubes that mean I’m not trying to do everything within an inch of Eva’s arm, but rather within a foot when I’m setting up the TPN or disconnecting it).
But Eva is still in a lot of pain, and there’s a lot of nausea.
We aren’t sure at the moment whether the GI has weighed in on next steps. She isn’t particularly communicative with either us or her staff. Eva thinks the current tube or the clips holding it in place or something are causing jejunal pain. We are hoping someone will decide to either pull the tube so the jejunum can heal or swap it or something. But in the mean time we wait.
And Eva is in pain and nauseated.
[This is Eva adding just one thing. I did get a response to my inquiries through the portal from a patient care coordinator to “Please continue to work with pain management to get the pain under control. Continue TPN for now. Follow with clinical nutrition. Once pain under better control can retry enteral feedings.” My next appointment with pain management is mid-October.]
The Hospital Chronicles
This is David writing on behalf of Eva who doesn’t really have the spoons for writing at the moment.
If you’ve been following along on Facebook, most of this post is likely to be review, so feel free to skip (unless you want to review the hospital intensive side of things).
On July 18th, Eva went to Stanford to get her tube swapped out. This is a relatively routine procedure, though it does involve an endoscopy, and therefore sedation. But it’s something that should happen once or twice a year. The swap went fine, and we took off for a family vacation in western Massachusetts on July 25th. By July 26th, it was clear there was something wrong with the tube.
Eva was venting something that looked an awful lot like her formula through her G-tube (gastric-tube) (note, the formula goes in through the J-tube (jejunum-tube) which is downstream of the stomach (gastric)–nothing is supposed to flow in that direction). This suggests that the tube “flipped”. A “flipped” GJ-tube means that the J portion has curled up and is no longer in the jejunum (part of the small intestine) but is now in the stomach. The test for this is to squirt blue Gatorade into the J tube, if it comes out the G-tube, your tube is flipped. At a lovely Inn in Western Massachusetts, there was blue effluvia coming out of Eva’s G-tube on a Saturday afternoon.
The remedy for a flipped tube is replacement, which requires endoscopy and somewhat specialized GIs to do it. It’s not something most hospitals do on weekends. So bright and early Monday morning, we go into the emergency room in Springfield Mass., (the teaching hospital for UMass Amherst), and spend the day shuttling around between tests, an attempt to fix or replace the tube by interventional radiology (IR) (apparently the topography of Eva’s stoma, stomach and small intestine don’t allow for IR to do it), and finally, an endoscopy and a replaced tube. The GI commented that he had used to two clips, since the tube had been originally secured by one stitch. We go back to vacation with the rest of the family, Eva begins to feed for the first time in two days, and everything is fine. Until Wednesday, when things feel “wrong” again.
Eva is venting something that looks like formula again. And there is once again blue effluvia coming out of Eva’s G-tube. And so, we go back to the hospital. This time, they can’t get to it the same day (we didn’t arrive until 2:00 PM, so they admit Eva so they can slip her in whenever they get a chance. The following afternoon, they swap the tube again, and the GI tells me they used three clips to secure it.
Eva is feeling pretty awful by this point, but she grits her teeth through the remaining few days of the trip until we fly back on Monday. By Wednesday, she is unable to feed at more than 15 ml/hour (her standard is 50), and we are seeing an NP at Stanford. The NP thinks Eva’s tube is flipped, and sends us to the ER for x-ray and maybe a fluoroscopy (we are dubious about the flipped tube part of things, but she’s seen more tubes than we have, so we go along with it). They do a CT scan, the tube isn’t flipped. They don’t know what to do for us, and send us home.
Thursday we touch base with our Primary Care Provider (PCP), and she suggests we come in Friday morning for IV hydration. We come in, Eva gets two liters of IV solution over 4 hours, and we all conclude that there is no way to keep Eva hydrated over the weekend, and besides bowel rest might be a good idea and fix everything. And the only way bowel rest works is in the hospital. So, with the consent of Eva’s GI at Stanford, we check her in to Novato Community Hospital for a few days. It is a small hospital, but we are only there for Eva to get IV hydration and maybe some pain management for a few days. Except . . . feeding through the tube isn’t getting easier, it’s getting harder. Eva can’t even tolerate 5 ml/hour (10% of what she had been getting).
By Wednesday of the following week, we are all clear that the bowel rest isn’t fixing anything quickly, and the IV hydration she is getting with some sugar in it is not a longer term solution. TPN (total parenteral nutrition) is the obvious answer. This is IV nutrition. This is a bigger deal because it requires a central line, in this case a PICC line. This is essentially a tube that runs inside a vein from your arm to a central vein right near the heart. It’s a little bit of a big deal because it is a route for things (like infections) to travel directly from outside the body to the heart. The docs at the hospital try to get ahold of Eva’s GI for a day and a half, but aren’t getting any response, and go ahead and schedule the PICC placement. It is placed, and Eva is getting real nutrition again.
We are still playing whack-a-mole with pain and nausea, but nutrition and hydration have been dealt with. Eva’s GI gets back to the hospitalists, and says TPN is a terrible idea and don’t do it–it always leads to infection. Sigh. We have actually heard this from another GI, and asking around, other people have heard it from their GIs. We don’t know where the GIs get their information, because it’s simply not true. When you tell other medical staff what the GIs said they look at you like you’re insane, because people can live on TPN for years without problems, and most of their patients have no problems. I can’t explain why GIs have such a different view of TPN than everyone else, but it seems to be a thing.
Over the course of most of another week, Eva is getting stabler. Her labs are looking more normal. By Monday the hospital is pretty ready to let us go. Except . . . to be sent home with TPN requires training. After all, while not as dangerous as the GIs seem to think, it is a route for infection, and does require a fair amount of caution and care. And a visit from a home health nurse your first day home. Who won’t be available until Saturday.
Eva has been in the hospital for 10 days now. Wearing a mask all the time, except when she is sleeping when she is wearing a CPAP mask. She is so over this and so ready to go home. After a day, they are able to find a nurse who can come to the house on Thursday, so they plan for a Wednesday discharge. This means we get the first training session on Tuesday and the second on Wednesday. And Wednesday afternoon, August 21, they let us go home.
Which starts an entirely new stage of this saga, which I will relate in the next post.
Hovering Shoes
The tube swap went very well, and it is very nice to have a clear, unclogged, cooperative tube once again. Jury is still out on the botox procedure. The goal is that by freezing my pyloris muscle open, my stomach would empty faster and that would alleviate my nausea. The doctor who performed the procedure said that my pyloris was already pretty open, so he wasn’t sure how well the intervention would work. My body is still working through the sleep deprivation, the anesthesia and the adrenaline of the past few days, so I really can’t tell anything yet.
The real test is going to come this week when I fly East for 10 a 10 day gathering of David’s extended family. Travel is incredibly hard on me. I find driving to be the worst, as my incredibly sensitive abdomen absorbs each bump and curve I feel a wave of discomfort and nausea. Comparatively, flying is nice and smooth. But, navigating the airport and TSA stress is simply exhausting.
Accordingly, if the botox can tamp down my nausea through a trip that will involve hours of driving on both ends, with a long flight in the middle, I will call it an absolute success. Only time will tell.
Travel is not what is occupying my mind these days. I am reserving my anxiety for what the company that supplies my formula and feeding supplies is not telling me. For almost a year now, they have been citing supply issues and periodically sending me feed bags for a different pump. They are theoretically fully compatible with my pump, but in my experience, they have been associated with some anomalous pump behavior.
This month the supply company sent me 500ml bags instead of my usual 1.000ml bag. These bags are for my pump, but require that I add formula in stages, rather than setting up a feed all at once. Not a huge deal on its own. Just a bother and another thing to remember to do throughout my day. A day that is already bound my medication times, flushing my tube 5 times a day and now an extension of my feed process. All of these little details and requirements, compounded with my varying levels of pain and nausea do really make it hard to live one’s life.
I called the supply company about sending me the wrong bags and they gave me the same supply chain issue line. I did a little research in my tubie group and it seems that the company that makes my pump is ceasing all support for the pump in September 2024.
The company that makes my pump does have a brand new pump that is replacing the model I have now. Some patients have received them. Just so far, no one who has the same supply company that I have. The supply company that is clearly divesting itself of all of their old stock for my current pump. It is their lack of communication that is really concerning me. It makes me wonder whether they are planning on getting out of the enteral feeding business altogether an \d just dumping their patients rather than making a capital investment in new pumps.
This company was generally well staffed and supportive when I first got my tube in November of 2022. Since then they have made massive cuts to their enteral feeding department. I no longer have a dietician than tracks me. My only communication with them is now a single monthly email asking if I am ready for my supplies to be sent. I don’t even get a confirmation after I reply. Unless you count the automated shipping information email which usually comes after my supplies arrive.
This is truly a terrifying time to be so dependent on our fragmented medical system. I see no profit motive in feeding folks like me. Given the capitalism on overdrive state of the world, I just can’t help but wonder how long it will be before I get fully dropped between the cracks.
A quick update
I happened to have my computer out to pay bills (a rarity these days, since I can usually just do that on my iPad) so I decided to do a quick update too.
My tube change and botox shot are now scheduled for this coming Thursday. I am very much looking forward to this, despite our 5:30am arrival time because my tube is most definitely due for a change. And if all goes well, I should be feeling better pretty quickly.
My hope is that the botox helps make drinking a little more comfortable. It has been very difficult keeping myself adequately hydrated when every sip feels like a lead balloon being dropped in my gut, followed by a wave of nausea. But the botox should help my stomach empty more quickly and I am hoping that includes liquids.
This is already a busy week of misc. medical appointments including an appointment with the anesthesiologist and getting our calcium score tests because aging is fun.
I also have my appointment at the Stanford pain clinic scheduled for August. I am meeting with a GI specialist who should be up to date on the latest gut brain research. In other words, exactly the type of specialist that I was looking for to help me with the issue of my brain misinterpreting gut motility as pain.
A Medical Update, for a change
After months of waiting (Mary got this appointment for me before we moved to California, back in March), I finally got to see my new GI yesterday. She is a part of Stanford’s Motility Center, which means I am no longer seeing a lone specialist. This makes a significant difference for the patient experience.
The most important distinction, for me, is that she sees a disproportionate number of idiopathic patients. If you recall, for most patients with gastroparesis, it is a complication of diabetes. The vast majority of the research on gastroparesis is therefore on patients with diabetes. The data is pretty clear that the few interventions offered for gastroparesis don’t have any significant impact on idiopathic patients like me.
While there are no new interventions that my new doctor can offer, she was able to offer some more insight into the few available options. For example, Every one of the specialists I have seen has dismissed botoxing the pyloris muscle in my stomach. This is the muscle that releases food from your stomach into your small intestine.
Gastroparesis is measured by the time it takes the stomach to empty of food. Paralyzing the pyloris muscle can speed up the time it takes for the stomach to empty. However, the data shows that this intervention is primarily effective in patients with diabetes and has a pretty lousy success rate for patients with idiopathic gastroparesis. That combined with the severity of my issue (even if we cut my current transit time of 21.5 hours in half, I still have severe gastroparesis because the normal transit time of food in the stomach is 4 hours).
I was a little surprised when my new doctor suggested trying botox, but she said that she has seen improvement in symptoms of nausea in about 50% of her idiopathic patients. That was news to me.
Even better, she was able to set me up so I can just get the botox injection when I get my tube swapped out, which is something that we are now in the process of scheduling. Hopefully, it will happen soon (my new doctor marked the scheduling as urgent) because my tube is really ready to be swapped.
While I was there, we also did a little med tweaking because one of my nausea meds was no longer working as well as it had been.
My doctor is that is clear about how over-scheduled she is, so she has a nurse practitioner that she works with hand in hand. The NP came to my first appointment so that she is completely up to speed. I will alternate seeing the doctor and the NP every 3 months. My doctor also has a nurse on her team who handles things like formula orders. For the first time since getting sick, I feel like I am in stable, competent care.
Rolling, rolling, rolling
The UTI has been resolved and I feel somewhat better, but not as better as I would like. Normally, after one heals from an infection, there is a wonderful feeling of general healthfulness. A feeling of truly being better. It often comes with a rush of mojo so you feel like you can take on the world. With chronic illness, not so much.
I felt when the antibiotics kicked in. And I have felt the infection slowly resolve. But any boost of energy was lost in me just trying to catch up the most basics. It is frustrating beyond belief. It is also an opportunity for me to practice my radical acceptance.
It has not all been bad. A bit confusing perhaps, but not bad. Inexplicably, I have been finishing my feed without increasing the speed on my pump. Some days I finish early. Today I finished right on time. I have no idea what is going on. But I am getting full nutrition, so I am not complaining.
I am complaining (a bit) about some ongoing discomfort with my tube. But it is not so bad that I don’t think I can hold on until my appointment with the motility doctor on July 10th. The motility doctor will most likely NOT be the doctor who can help me with my tube, but I am hoping that the benefit of a motility center is that there is at least one doctor there who can manage my tube. And hopefully they can do something about it quickish, because I am now in the window when my tube should be replaced (four to six months, with six months being in very early August).
I am not spinning, but I am beginning to read easy novels again. Actually, I am juggling a YA science fiction book (which is not my usual genre, but it is the first novel of someone I have subscribed to on substack for a couple of years and I am curious about his fiction) and an autobiography of a cartoonist returning from WWII. David encountered it while unpacking and passed it on to me. Both are slow going, but going, which is about all that matters to me right now.
I am increasingly frustrated with Facebook’s algorithm and how so many more people saw the post that I had moved to Woodacre and no one saw the link to my blog. Basically, I am just about completely fed up with Facebook, but I cannot leave because that is where the critical mass of my people are. Anyway, if you want to keep up on my adventures, you can always subscribe on this page and you will get the posts in your email.
One last thing, because I want to end this post on an up-note. Our move to California has been so good for me. It has been great to be able to get together with friends and family from near–and in some cases from far-ish (east coast)–in our backyard. Completely maskless and in our own little bit of forest. definitely an upgrade.